can it get any worse?
the day actually began when i only had 1.5 hours of sleep last night.
i was chionging for my Tues presentation with my BGS group.
(DAMN LAME but i just got to knw that we are NOT presenting tmr because others volunteered to do it earlier moments ago. -.-)
TODAY:
:( - mood cranky
:( - got back FA mids early in the morning. FLUNKED IT LIKE ____.
:( - went to class for stats quiz, FLUNKED IT LIKE ____ AGAIN
when the qn wasnt difficult at all. was feeling too horrible before that & i panicked like usual...
:( - got back Stats mids after quiz. ultimate irony. i got full for my written & failed my MCQs. its qt absurd but MCQs are worth 4 mark each. and written has less percentage compared to MCQs? which explained why i did so badly. so, FLUNKED IT LIKE _____ AGAIN x 2.
:( - wasnt feeling well enough to go for CT meeting & now i dont know whats going on despite reading the email updates.
:( - STRESSED. feeling is qt sucky when everythg's cumulative unlike JC but my stupid JC mentality still stays... esp the hoverings between passing & failing. then i tried to calculate my results & stuffs. after today, im freaking faraway from my original goal of getting scholarship so i dont hv to pay for my sch fees.
im feeling esp horrible when i realised no matter how much hard work i put in for my finals, i might only be able to get a C or worse. the mids alr took up 30% for Stats. ohmy.
& since GPA is cumulative for the terms, im suiciding my other terms' GPA as well.
i might just screw up so much that its impossible for me to bridge the gap in later terms for my dear scholarship. )':
DESSERTS.
DESSERTS.
DESSERTS.
so... i guess i've only got one way out!
really work damn hard for my finals.
& really achieve the impossible for both my mods???
*doubts
*SERIOUS DOUBTS.
i can alr sense intense muggings ahead!
ah, but i hope i dont get too stressed out by then.
hvnt been feeling like that since a long time ago....
wht a horrible day right? :(
the :( feeling lingers.
sigh.
I SHALL NOT BE A LOSER,
RACHEL MUST GO ON! :)
